Family Life

The last few weeks have been very busy. At work I started out with a long list of small jobs to do, loose ends to clean up, maintenance, troubleshooting, upgrades, some of it necessary, some of it just good customer service, good PR. I’m in the thick of it now, halfway through the list, and as we get closer to Christmas the scheduling gets more challenging. At the moment I have about eight machines to service, some close by, some far away. We have to coordinate my schedule with that of our various customers. The timing is pretty tight. There’s not a lot of room for slipping behind. I have a lot of balls up in the air.

I’d been away for a couple of days on a service call, and I got back to work today to a stern summons to the principal’s office. I got raked over the coals for missing an item on my lowest-priority job. With all those balls in the air, I dropped one. Though others were aware of the situation and in a position to do something about it, none lifted a finger to help. But when I slipped many were quick to point and shake their heads at me.

This continues a trend over the past year that has made work a very hostile place. I wrote about it three months ago, concluding that I’d try to stick it out and trust God’s leading. Things are getting worse, and now I just want to throw in the towel. Give up. I’m tired, discouraged, feel like the world’s against me. I don’t know what I’m going to do or where I’m going to go. It’s a hard place to be.

Mum wrote me a very kind, encouraging email today, just right for the terrible day it has been. But outside of my family, there is little light in this valley of shadows.

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